This morning I had the strangest dream. Before I went to bed I was reading about self love and compassion. I read this in Conscious Loving by Gay and Kathlyn Hendricks:
The hallmark of wholeness is the ability to love yourself. In the realm of love, a paradox exists: you can effectively love others only when you can love yourself. If you cannot love yourself, you will try to fill the void of your own lack of self love with the love of others...the same problem exists if you try to give love to other people who do not love themselves. You will turn yourself inside out loving them but it will not help. We all must learn to give ourselves the love we want. Then other people can love us and it will feel satisfying because it is not filling a void. It become love dancing with itself.
So I dreamed that I had this sort of ball of energy and growth in my hands. Kind of looked like little clear bubbles or balloons. I knew that it had been sort of minimally growing the way it should because it had not been tended to with mindful care and attention. At times it became my dog Delilah. At some point I realized that I could project images of a waterfall from my laptop onto the rather boring wall in front of us and that would entertain Delilah, it fulfilled her need to interact with the natural world which makes sense to her. Then I remember that I held that ball of energy close to me, extending love to it, creating a field of peace and love around it for it to grow and I sat back and watched the 'waterfall' show with this being, this thing. And it was so pleased at being held and loved that it started to grow miraculously, it starting to put shoots out and up and flowers began to sprout in every direction. It was so happy! But then one of the balloon like shoots got in my mouth and it was not pleasant, I wanted to get rid of it. So I bit down and as I bit down I realized that this was still a piece of the whole, that it belonged to this organism and that killing it would kill the whole thing. Sure enough I saw it began to wither away and dry up and I tried to do what I could to bring it back to life. Then I woke up
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